May 22nd 24
In Krakow. The town is centered by the Wawel Castle (Wawel seems to come from the same root as Babel, Barbarian, Blahblah, etc), which is a fantastically old castle built atop an area which has been continuously settled for an even longer period of time than the existence of the fortress, which itself has been repaired and built up in many different stages, meaning the castle has a wonderful mixture or mideaval, baroque, and gothic style construction. Originally we hadn't planned to go, which is absurd, because it looks like a fairytale here, which is very enjoyable. Feel much more relaxed than I have the previouse days, unsure exactly what changed. Maybe I just prefer being in Krakow, or more likely I merely had a better set of activities to do today. We took a train early in the morning and then went immediately to a little tavern cafe, then saw many treasures inside the beautiful castle and then sat by the river while it rained for a few hours on a cafe made out of an old floating barge sunk into the riverbed with pylons. Brooke told me to start saying 'I am having fun' when I am having fun, which I didnt do, but I did think it. It was the first step in a method of becoming more aware of one's emotions or needs or wants or something. It came about because I mentioned the difficulty in figuring out what I want at any given moment. I put two złoty in one of the prayer candle things in the Wavel Katedra and made a really vague prayer in my head and lit the candle. I think it amounted to me praying for better and stronger and mainly more pure desires but my thoughts were embarrasingly incoherant but I didn't pray with much conviction so maybe God didnt even hear it.